Merry Christmas

Sorry my post is late, but it's the only time I have. Well another Christmas and holiday has passed and you guessed it, everything is ruined by everyone. I don't know why my life is revolved around negative things. Sometimes/most of the time I wish I have a different life. Nothing matters anymore, because in being ignored most of the time and everyone loves to put me down.

Whatever, others/things are better than me. I hate being depressed, put down, made fun of, and ignored by others, so should I make it easier on myself and others by disappearing? I think it's the best choice.

Christmas madness

I'm not rich, so for Christmas not everyone will get a gift, except my family and Thomas. This year I wanted to get his nieces and nephews some gifts, but they are limited due to the lack of how rich I am. Right now only two of his nephews have gifts and they're brothers, so I don't want to make it seems like they're my favorites so idk what to do now, return everyone's gifts? Maybe.

I'm tired, stressed, my heels are killing me, family always victimizing me, and everyone at work wants me to take their shifts. If I end up taking Nicole's shift on wednesday, then the only time I'll get a break from work is Christmas day!
Everyone's out to kill me...

Only asking for a little

Yeah Christmas is almost here and again I'm only getting 1 gift and it's from Stephanie. It's been like this for 1-2 years now? And I still don't understand why I'm not receiving any from Thomas? I do so much for him yet I don't get a thank you, I really appreciate it, or a gift for either my birthday or Christmas. I'm so sick of everything, so too bad for those people who aren't getting any gifts from me. I'm going to return Thomas' gift that I got him. I'm not being stingy, I'm just showing others how they treat me, like trash/nothing. Whatever if I'm being dramatic, no one cares.
Everyday at work I see guys come in and get something for that special some one and I think about Thomas, you know, that he's buying me something, but in reality he's not, and it hurts to know that the person you love the most is treating you this bad. I don't know why we are still together or even got back together, when I know that this is going to repeat itself.
I suppose it's going to be like this until I'm an old woman or until I die. Nothing matters anymore, just look at my crushed, unnoticeable feelings.

Whatever...

UTI?

It's not a saying like wtf or lol, but instead urinary tract infection. Sounds weird right? Well let me tell you this, it's annoying as hell when you use the bathroom and you constantly have to pee!!! Number one thing you need to know, drink lots of cranberry juice, which I don't have at the moment, but I'll go get some tomorrow since its midnight :)

Yay Christmas is 9 days away! Now let's cram our shopping into the weekend and try to freak out at our cashiers! I love it when people do that, NOT! Well I'm going to do some shopping tomorrow and Saturday so I can get some people out of the way. Hum, I think I'll just get my family and I probably won't get all of Thomas' family, maybe just him, his nieces (7 of them!), his nephews (5 and I have the most perfect gift for the fat nao nao!!), and his sisters (5 but it's so hard cause I thought about giving them couple gifts, oh well I'll just give them VS cards again probably :)). There goes my pay check! Man I really need to not spend a lot this year. Hopefully I get all cheapo on my gifts ;)
Ok gotta pee, I HATE YOU UTI!!!
Song of the moment: A Thousand Years by: Christina Perri (love love love it!!)

Also Christmas means toe socks!!!

Wedding dress come true!

I'm madly in love with the whole Disney princess theme and thank you god for Alfred Angelo!! He made the most beautiful Disney princess inspired dresses ever! My favorites are the Sleeping Beauty, Belle, and Cinderella dresses! I would defiantly say that either the Sleeping Beauty or Belle would be my down the aisle dress and the Cinderella would be my reception dress :)
Why all of a sudden wedding dress fever? I started to watch a show called Say Yes to the Dress, which is about a bridal shop in New York. It's a tuff place to work at, man it makes Victoria's Secret look better to work at! I mean yeah we get bitchy customers but not like bridezilla's, thank god!
Moving on, I had pho today and it made me happy although it made me sick after as well, oops ;) oh well cause it was a perfect day to eat it! Doesn't it look tasty? It looks less liquidly cause I forgot to take a picture of it until a few bites, still yummy looking though!

My wish almost came true...

So on the 11th, before I went to work I posted up the previous post, and wished that someone would hit me or whatever. Well, when I got off work, I was walking across the cross walk like everyone else and this douche bag decides to talk on the phone while speeding through the cross walk where there was clearly people walking across it! I was a about 12 inches from getting hit. It was annoying at first cause she was obviously freaken retarded, but as I was driving home I thought to myself, what would of happened if I kept walking? Would I be ok, in the hospital, or possibly dead?
I feel like I kind of regretted not walking... Oh well right? Whatever, I'm getting myself some pho tmr, cause I sold my books today and started my christmas shopping! Yay for the hard work ahaha :)
Song of the moment: I like it like that by: Hot Chelle Rae

Same thing everyday...

Every day is the same thing, it's me getting yelled and my boyfriend telling me he loves me, but he doesn't. I'm so sick of my life. I have nothing to live for, so why am I still here? Obviously no one knows how I'm feeling cause I hate to tell people shit they don't care about. I'm a very sensitive and depressed person. I'm nothing special like everyone.
Well got to go to work now and pretend to smile like every things alright. I hope that I get hit by a car everyday, so hopefully that happens today? Who cares right? Not my parents cause they'll just say "it's her fault, I told her blah blah blah"
God, just kill me now or else I'll have to avert to the other way, which I almost did two summers ago.